I don't know if anyone will ever read this blog, but I decided not to let that stop me. I have no intention of sharing it in my private sphere (read: Facebook), but I'm putting it out there for the universe. If one person reads this and can find comfort, solidarity, healing, hope, faith, or a tad bit of wisdom then I will have achieved more than I set out to. Mostly I'm putting this out there because sometimes I can't sleep at night. And when I can't sleep, I toss and turn and my brain churns a mile a minute. It spits out these memories at me; recollections of a time in my life so foreign to my life now. And yet at the same time it is still a huge part of my present life, just not one I can discuss with most people. I live without recognition of the daily battle it is to get out of bed and put one foot in front of the other. The people in my life who could and would provide that recognition were the people with me in the trenches when I was at my lowest, but t